Some experiences in life are just too painful to talk about or want to remember. On Thursday, Randy and I had to give Nathan to his parents. It was one of the hardest things we've ever had to do. We hated every, single second of it all. We miss him more than my words can express. Luckily, we had planned a camping trip to Fish Lake with some of our best friends starting on Friday, so the day after giving Nathan up, we were able to escape reality and all of our routines and head to the mountains. It was good for us to go away. Now we can move on. It is going to be excruciating at times, but we will be ok. Thanks to everyone that has been supporting us through this hard time. Your words and strength have carried me through moments that I didn't think I could handle. THANK YOU!!!! I will post about our camping trip later, for now, I'm going to go take a LONG shower and hope I don't find anymore binkies laying around.