What you don't know....

There is a lot about me that you don't know. I had an awesome friend tell me today that she has a sister a lot like me as far as attitude goes. The way she described it was a, "it's my way or eat shit" kind of attitude. Which is usually how I am just out of survival for some reason. There have been things that have happened in my life that require me to be that way. The thing people don't know about us with "alpha", or "type A", or "red", or whatever you want to call our personality is that we hurt just like everyone else. We cry just as hard as the rest. The difference is that it will take a lot more to hurt me than it will to hurt you and when I get hurt, I won't be able to turn my cheek as quick as you think I should. It's not always fun being this way. I like making people happy. My favorite thing in the world is to make people laugh. When I love, I love with so much passion that it makes the sting that much worse when I get hurt. I like to be with those who build me up. I like to be the one who brings a smile to your face. When I tell you that I love you, I really do and that should never be questioned. I am very loyal. I will be your friend for eternity if you just treat me with respect. Those who have known me a while, know that. I don't ever give up on relationships. Why the rant? Just because. I am having such a hard time with some things lately and I want everyone to understand me and my "type" a little better. You need to know that on the surface, it's all fun and games, but there is a lot more to me. There is a person that has had to deal with abandonment, loss, and a lot of other hard situations. I am no different than you. I have so many friends and family that are so supportive, for that I am grateful. My mind was racing, so I thought blogging about it would help. We're all here to learn from each other and grow. I hope I have helped someone look at the people in their life a little different. I wouldn't change my life for anything. I wouldn't change the people in my life for different ones. I love my family and friends very much. I am truly blessed.