I don't know why things are so hard right now, but I feel like life has taken a big, old dump on my family. Just when I feel like the pressure from the struggles we are going through are going to be more than I can handle.... we get a call from our doctor that Tyler's H1N1 test came back positive. So, all the crap that we have been dealing with isn't enough, let's just throw a little swine flu on top of it. I don't want to sound like Debbie Downer, but seriously, how much more can I handle? I don't want to be tested anymore. I'm done. I know I can get through anything I get thrown at me, but ENOUGH ALREADY!!!!!! I am one girl just doing the very best I can. I am fine to be done for this round. I feel like I am so raw that one more thing is going to push me over the edge. So, like in the book The Little Engine That Could, I will chant, "I think I can, I think I can...." over and over until we get to the top of this hill.