The Clyde Family

The Clyde Family

Monday, February 7, 2011

Frustration

The above machine is affectionately referred to "the prick" by me!!!!


I am so frustrated right now. I am trying my hardest to keep my glucose levels down and I've been really good at it, but one bad test makes me feel horrible. The fact that I have gestational diabetes makes me feel like I have failed my baby. All I have to do for this baby right now is take care of my body and I failed. I really just want to cry. I hate this. I hate knowing that this could be a game changer for this pregnancy. It scares the crap out of me. Anyhow, I know it will be ok, I'm just feeling really down right now. So, I'm going to go pout for a minute and then return all better!!!! Thanks for listening!!!!

7 comments:

Amy said...

Well, if it makes you feel better, my youngest is the happiest, sweetest, smartest little guy and I had gestational diabetes with him. You're not failing your baby, I promise :) Heads up Hopie! The world sucks when you're not happy...

black said...

Hopie!~!
Believe me, I know EXACTLY what you are feeling. I have had Gestational diabetes with all my babies and I have experienced the guilt everytime!!! I just want you to know that I know what you are going through. I felt the exact same things. I have 4 very healthy kids and everything turned out perfectly. Just try to do your best with the diet (as hard as it is). If you ever need to talk or vent or cry... I am here. I know what you are going through....yes, I know I already said that. haha love ya!

Aleisha said...

sorry, that was from me... signed into the wrong account...

Rachel Doyle said...

Ahh Hopie -- it sucks and that's all there is to it. It's not your fault - and you shouldn't blame yourself. I go through it every time I have a baby and I just want to kick myself in the hiney when I eat the whole box of cookies- but the best thing you can do is just smile and think -- this too shall pass.

My blood sugars are totally out of whack right now -- and I feel horrible because I should be able to do it by now and sometimes I just can't. I know if I don't get it together I might not be here long enough to raise my kids -- but in the same sense we are only human and I think our Heavenly Father helps us get through it. Keep your chin up --

I also know you probably don't want to do this yet - because of you lack of love for needles -- but insulin works wonders and really makes life a lot easier and less depressing 00and if you need a coke -- you just give yourself a shot and wala -- everyone is happy. :) If you want to scream and cry -- well I'll be in St. George next week!

Wendy said...

This too shall pass! Keep on keeping on and know that we love you!

Heidi said...

Hang in there Hopie. I'm sure I would be having a realy hard time if there were no sugar involved.

Jamaica said...

You are a strong person and we all know that you are trying to do the right thing. It is hard to get your sugar levels where they are suppose to be until you figure out what causes it to go up and down. You should not feel sad about a high reading it happens to everyone.